Sunday, 9 March 2014
Back in 9/11, I was in the afternoon session of Uni in Ireland, when I heard my classmates mentioning something about "some plane crash in America." I didn't take much notice of it at first. It wasn't until someone else had said that there was "a second crash into a building," when I realized that something terrible must have happened. And then I watched the news. All night, all the next day and probably the rest of the week. The images just kept replaying, but I, as well as the rest of the world, was still in disbelief. All that happening, across the Pond. Everyone surely remembers where they were and what they were doing when they first heard about it. Whatever way it might have affected us is a different story. Twitter wasn't even around then. Imagine if it was, though. The internet would have crashed. And it probably did. Fortunately, but unfortunately, the internet hadn't quite become one of the basic necessities of life, like food, water & oxygen! Aaahh simpler times.....
And now this. A Malaysia Airlines flight from KL to Beijing. We may not have any connections whatsoever with any of the passengers on that flight, and yet we're so fixated on every bit of breaking news or information that comes to light. We're practically on the edge of our seats waiting for the next press conference from the Malaysian news stations. As with all PCs, the "official words" are rarely as sensationalized as the social media make them out to be. After scrolling through Tweet after Tweet after Retweet and hundreds of Retweets later, eventually you can boil everything down to possibly 5 legitimate facts at any given time. Another frustration I have is trying to get to the bottom of a link that's been retweeted so many times over that it's virtually impossible to find the original source. Like this poignant drawing, for instance; whose source I'd really like to know and give credit to.
It's been almost 48 hours (and possibly an hour since I last checked for updates) since the plane went missing. Hopes are wearing thin, while mystery mounts. Questions and speculations aplenty. Nevermind us. All eyes, thoughts and prayers go out to those on board and their families. They were parents, husbands, wives, sons, daughters, brothers, sisters who would have spent their second day in Beijing today, or onward to other intended destinations. To put it bluntly, this could have happened to anyone. And that's why we're watching.
Hopefully there will be a breakthrough in the search. It might take weeks, months or even years. However long it takes for the families to get closure in whatever outcome.
Sunday, 9 February 2014
It's amazing how just as you're about to reach breaking point, when you think all odds are against you, suddenly things start falling back into place. These last couple of weeks have proven to me just that. And I'm forever thankful.
This is, indeed, turning out to be a great start to the year.
And after so long.....I can finally breathe.
Tuesday, 31 December 2013
I didn't think it would be fair to end the year without a post. And I didn't think it would be fair to go on and on about shutting down this site, when I know, deep down, I couldn't bring myself to pull the cord (after 7years!)
I had planned on heading out tonight, just for the sake of it; to succumb to the pressure of New Year's Eve. But as nature intended, the heavy rain had better ideas for me.
The roads were surprisingly quiet this evening. A couple of cafes turned us away as early as 5pm as they had been fully-booked for tonight. Apparently, family barbecues have cleared out the charcoal stocks everywhere.
We're blessed to live in a country that respects all faiths and religions, particularly in terms of public holidays. Although, New Year's Day is not a religious holiday, celebrating it here has been somewhat frowned upon in recent years. My last memorable New Year's Eve celebration on home soil would be back in 2005. The Empire. Concert. Dinner. Family. Fireworks. There was a lot of fanfare back then. And it was the thing to do. It was as good as you could get without a plane ticket.
It all comes down to our intentions, or "niat/nawaitu". It's a universal public holiday where everything and everyone should just shut down and spend time with their loved ones, doing things they enjoy. Oh and it happens to be a New Year!
2014 bears a lot of meaning to us in Brunei, as in a few months, Syari'ah Law will come to effect. How this will affect us as a nation and society remains to be seen, maybe immediately or in the long run. Change is hard to accept, but perhaps these 6 months were just what we needed to get us mentally-prepared for what is to come. Hopefully we'll be enlightened further on the subject, as we tend to be afraid of what we don't know. Insya Allah, as Bruneians, we're all in this together.
Here's hoping the New Year brings new hope for bigger, better, brighter things. It's the same wish every year. Why change it now?
Happy New Year, everyone!
Monday, 9 September 2013
I just spent the best part of my evening simply immersed in my music vault. After years, and I mean, years of procrastinating, as I do, I can proudly say that I've finally ripped & burned my CD tower. Not quite so figuratively, of course! It's an achievement, to say the least, seeing that I knew squat about how to work iTunes (still hate it with a passion!). As soon as I had somewhat figured it out, it was time to bring out the big guns: the Case Logics! This post from here on end is dedicated to nostalgia and all the good stuff that comes with cracking open the treasure chests & Pandora's boxes of the past that we once thought we'd forget and never revisit. Ever. What used to be bitter and even bittersweet were just a series of no regrets. And, by the way, if you've never heard of a Case Logic, you're probably too young to read this post!
I couldn't help but gawk at the little fortune I used to spend on CDs. Double CDs, special editions, bonus editions, imports (my favourite obscure section at HMV & Tower Records in their good days). How many remixes of Mariah's "Always Be My Baby" did I really need? Apparently I couldn't live with just the one CD single! €22.99 for an album. I couldn't wait for it to get off the charts & finally go on Sale, apparently. This was even before anyone ever heard of Napster & the likes. If you wanted music, you had to buy the whole friggin album. Which is what amused me when I was busy ripping them onto my iPod; 1 double CD: 3 friggin tracks I actually liked! Thank you mp3s! Where were you when I was a skint undergrad living on expensive music and grilled cheese?
But to me, music has always been and will always be as essential as breathing. I call it "The Soundtrack of My Life." How often do you hear even the first few bars of a song and instantly remember exactly where you were, who you were with and what you were doing? Be it good or bad, music is bound to evoke some smidgen of emotion even in the steeliest of hearts.
I always had this habit of signing my name onto the CDs and their cover sleeves, with the date & city I bought them from. Now how are we supposed to remember where we were when we purchased that mp3 for $0.99?
That's where I was this evening. Teleported to the good ol' 90s, which ,some may argue, was not such a stand-out era, particularly in terms of fashion. We can identify iconic fashion from the 60s, 70s and 80s; but the 90s?
My collection did transcend into the millenium where early on music was good too. I'd have to shamelessly admit that I was heavily into R&B, almost excusively, with maybe the odd Radiohead and Nirvana albums for those dreary Irish emo days. Actually my go-to angst album would be Alanis' "Jagged Little Pill". Well, isn't that ironic? ......(I couldn't help it!)
It's sad to think that all the joys of heading out to the record store, to sift through rows and rows of CDs, sampling entire albums, one after another at the listening posts, then forking out your hard-earned 20 bucks, has now been reduced to the magical experience of clicking "buy" at your desk or phone. The thrill only lasts 5 seconds, depending on your connection, of course.
Sure, we save a lot of space now. Physical space. No CD tower. No dust. Do Case Logics even exist anymore?
But the music is still for keeps.
....Until you update your iTunes, then anything's a surprise!
Tuesday, 20 August 2013
Well, that last week and half sure went by fast! So much for my leave. Most of it was spent going back & forth to the office anyway, as I had rehearsals for the Ministry's Hari Raya performance just this last weekend. What with, effectively, a 5-day epic long Raya public holiday, Wednesday morning must have seen some mega blues! Which is why I made sure I'd take a few more days off, just for a few extra lie-ins.
As much as I dreaded Eid, particularly this year, surprisingly it's actually turned out pretty sweet.
Family, friends, forgiveness, and of course, food! All things to be thankful for.
The house was lit up and crowded again. It's what I look forward to every year.
And now it's back to the grind. A part of me wanted to extend my leave, but I decided that that would only prolong the "holiday hangover." I'm looking forward to getting back to normality. Work, run, R&R.
But I'm happy. Raya came and went. Until we meet again. Next year. Insya Allah.
Friday, 9 August 2013
Who says resolutions are only for new years? This Syawal I have no expectations. I'm ever thankful for what I have and the people around me. I'm appreciating the little things. Life's too short to sweat the small stuff.
Have a wonderful Aidilfitri!
Tuesday, 6 August 2013
Year after year, the run up to Eid has lost its meaning on me. Maybe 'cos I'm no longer a kid, all giddy running around the garden with sparklers, trying on my new Baju Kurung and shoes all set for Hari Raya. Maybe 'cos my family's shrinking (at this end, yet expanding at another!). Maybe 'cos it has never been the same since my beloved father passed away.
Aidilfitri has been melancholic since. Not to mention the many years I had to spend it away. Thinking that finally coming back for good would breathe a new sense of excitement for the festivities, I had never envisioned Raya to be this bittersweet.
I turned on my Lagu Raya playlist on the way home from work, (yes I have one!) skipped through the tracks, and switched back to JT on Summer 2013. I've become the Grinch!
I suppose it'll only hit me when I hear the 1st Takbir on Raya Eve. Gets me every time. Whatever happens after that is irrelevant. To me anyway. And, who knows? I might even enjoy it this year....We'll see. Insya Allah. Amin!