8th of April. This was the first time in 12 years of service I had not taken the day off. I was blessed, though, to have celebrated it in full-scale luxury. At the Palace, no less. That being in the form of attending one of the functions for the Royal Wedding, the Istiadat Malam Berbedak, or "powdering" ceremony, after just attending the Istiadat Majlis Pertunangan DiRaja or Royal Engagement ceremony the day before. It was going to be a full week of Royal Wedding festivities, and the highlight was to be the Istiadat Bersanding Pengantin DiRaja held on the Sunday that I, eventually, would have to miss.
Just the week before, my family and I visited my grandmother in Singapore who was ill and had been admitted to hospital. Her condition seemed to have improved towards the end of our short visit, so we really hoped that she would pull through.
Unfortunately, that wasn't the case. We flew out again that following Saturday as her condition had worsened. She was getting weaker by the day and she had expressed how she wanted to see all her children and grandchildren the soonest possible. She was pleased that everyone had come to see her. We were glad that she was still able to communicate with us those few days. Doctors said that she was a fighter and that she had seemed to bounce back. Perhaps it was from seeing her family.
But a week later she left us. Peacefully. Inna lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji'un.
That certainly was a lot to take in over a span of 10 days. In between the messages of condolences, my unrelenting work group chats were off the hook. Part of me wanted to switch off and shut it all out, but another part of me needed to keep track on what was going on back home while I was away. True to form, no sooner had I got back to work than it was full-speed ahead onto our upcoming event. In a weird way it was good to be back on the grind after my "roller-coaster" week. There's a certain comfort in routine.
I never thought I'd say this, but I'm relieved that April's finally over. It really did seem like a long drawn out, albeit eventful month for me, personally.
I really do hope the next few weeks will be kinder. The last few months have had us all burnt out. So I'm just going to take it one day at a time......